6.28.2009

beyonce + plastic surgery

wow.
lol waaack!

first off--
beyonce's boobs may have gotten bigger,
but that doesn't mean she got a
breast augmentation...
it means that her boobs were
smaller when she was younger and probably
got bigger when she got older...
your boobs do not stay the same size forever
hormones do kick in...

as for her nose...
all of the pics i've seen
are one pic of her frowning
and the other is her grinning or smiling...
of course thats gunna change the appearance of her nose...
when you smile your nose spreads...

her lips:
apparently they got thinner...
well uhm same shxt as the nose pics
one pic is her frowning
the other smiling

and in addition...
they do airbrush pics!

and even if she did
get surgery and i'm just ranting for no reason,
who gives a shxt.
i don't approve of plastic sugery,
but thats her business.

omg! i caint wait to see this movie!

i've never been so proud to read

a book and then watch the movie!!!!

aaaah! i cant wait!

the novel is truly precious.

6.25.2009

maaaaan. what a trip.

crazy stuff!
who would've ever thought
that m.j.
would be gone so soon?

i think he's suffered enough though.
all of the negative media attention,
the financial problems,
his sickness (whatever he was sick of)...
it has all come to an end.

now he can moon walk
and grab his groin
in heaven and in peace!

all he really ever wanted
was to stay young
and be a kid again,
he has his chance now
to live forever in our hearts and minds.

i'm sure all of the fallen stars
are having fun up there!

R.I.P. to m.j. and all of the fallen stars up there!

:D

6.21.2009

bored [no title yet]

i have no clue of what a broken heart feels like.

does it feel like
a star that blew up?

does it feel like
when your tounge gets stuck
on the metal ice cube tray?

does it feel like
when a dog bites you in the axx?

does it feel like
when you were a kid
and lost your favorite teddy bear?

does it feel like
when you smash your fingers in the car door?

or does it feel like
a heart attack?

does it feel like
a broken arm?

i have no clue of what a broken heart feels like...
guess im blessed.

5.26.2009

8 toxic personalities...

8 Toxic personalities to avoid
by Brett Blumenthal - Sheer Balance, on Wed May 13, 2009 8:01am PDT

Although we like to think that the people in our lives are well-adjusted, happy, healthy minded individuals, we sometimes realize that it just isn't so. Personally, I've had moments where I'll be skipping through my day, happy as can be, thinking life is grand and BAM, I'll be blindsided by someone who manages to knock the happy wind out of my sails. Sometimes it is easy to write it off and other times, not so much.

Maybe you are a positive person, but when you are around a certain individual, you feel negative. Or, maybe you have an idealistic view of the world and when you are with certain people, you are made to feel silly, unrealistic or delusional. Or, maybe you pride yourself in being completely independent and in control of your life, but when you are around a certain family member, you regress into a state of childhood.
Some of these situations, and yes, these people, can have a tremendously negative impact on our lives. And, although we are all human and have our 'issues,' some 'issues' are quite frankly, toxic. They are toxic to our happiness. They are toxic to our mental outlook. They are toxic to our self-esteem. And they are toxic to our lives. They can suck the life out of us and even shorten our lifespan.

Here are the worst of the toxic personalities out there and how to spot them:
1. Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.

Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.

2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."

Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.

3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.

Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.

4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.

Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.

5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.

Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.

6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.

Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.

7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.

Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.

8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.

Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.

All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.
Frankly, life is too short to spend your time dealing with toxicity. If you can, avoid spending mucho time with people who are indicative of these behaviors and you'll feel a lot happier. Have you encountered these personalities? What have you done? Any personalities you would add?

5.24.2009

i've gotta make [u] [s] work.

the time has come again.
i'm fighting for a lvoe that
i now know i can win.
i'm living for this bond,
in mutual sin,
this lvoe within...
it keeps me alive and breathing.

letters, words, phrases,
and i preach of lvoe.
lvoe for you,
lvoe for me,
lvoe for "we,"
lvoe for everything in between.

i ask for this lvoe to be
true and pure.
this lvoe to be ideal.
this lvoe to sustain the status quo.
this lvoe to be real.

you are a reflective of me.
i am a reflective of you.
promise me that we will conquer all
and together create
and give birth to something that
will be created out of our lvoe for one another.

with this i ask of you to be there for me,
as i wil be there for you.

in lvoe.

5.23.2009

y u m m y .

my new favorite glasses:

come & gone.

may is almost coming to end--
it has [almost] come
and gone
like a stripper with your money.
i'm 19.
my life is rolling on by
as everyone watches.
pretty soon i'm going to be old,
and walking with a walker.
oh boy.